Certainty, unknown.

The year has been very different, strange, unknown, unimaginable - a revolutionary combination. Life does not just take but also gives, and this past year reminds me that I am a living example of such a life.

There is too much confusion when I think of the past year. I have answers to questions I don't need and questions to which I have no answers. Also, questions I thought would diminish and fade without a discernible realization were answered with certainty in a matter of seconds, while answers that I was actually looking for lay wild in some corner of my imagination. Only now I have this hope that time will answer them. Every question cannot have an answer - faith is an example. Unusual, but I now have faith in that.

As days have passed, I have learnt. This learning has either merely tickled my memory or has startled my imagination and jolted my existence. Unusual, but this has not simply befuddled me but also helped me decipher my own imagination, therefore leaving me in a state of flux.

I have learnt from time and what a teacher time is? I have tried to understand the depths of its variations and have failed on every occasion. Unusual, but I have learnt nevertheless to comprehend and appreciate the beauty of its change - like seasons - thereby giving hope of betterment and another opportunity.

I have learnt from humans who are as different and unique as the wave born from the death of a drop. They have taught me so much and yet I am not content and want to know more with a strange fear that one day I will give up and would not be able to contain any more. I have learnt, to love and feel it, to hold and be held, to raise and rise, to believe and be believed, to see through and beyond. Unusual, but respectively I have also learnt, to hate and feel it, to let go and be gone, to descend and fall, to question and be questioned, to be blind and hide.

I have grown another year and life has given me every opportunity to know more. Will I get what I desire in the time to come? Its a question unanswered, a certainty unknown.