Honesty has a sad side. It is painful and unbearable at times. Within this sadness their is a sigh of relief because a truth gets unearthed and everything gets clear. Their is a path that leads to this truth. Happiness on this path is a prostitute that satifies only if paid and that too for a very short time. Questions on this path are like thorns that can either bruise or pierce right through. The honesty lay in the asking not in the answering.
It is hard to dismiss a fact, because it is tangible once apparent. Interestingly the same fact was always a reality but was unacceptable because it had no shape and stood only on a broken structure of words. Words, that give meaning to all that exists, can entangle everything if not respected. Playing the game is not an option but that is where the fascination lies. Like an unopened birthday present; an untouched, fully clad woman.
Getting rejected is not as bad as getting dismissed for having thoughts that mean nothing. It is a human trait not to understand what lies beyond the mirror image. What is to be believed? The left is actually right and the right is actually left. Is this the fact? Is this honest? Is this true? This is painful. This is unbearable. It all means nothing. Dismissed.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Beyond the mirror
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Is this honest? honesty is not always what it seems
Is this true? There can be another side to it
This is painful. dont be scared to show it
This is unbearable. it will only get worse
It all means nothing. ofcourse it does why would you feel the need to write it otherwise
Dismissed. before dismissing anything its wise to know the full truth, as they say half truth is worse than a lie.
"honesty is not always what it seems" True. That is exactly what I am saying because honesty should not be painful but it sometimes is.
"dont be scared to show it" Not scared at all.
"it will only get worse" How?
You ask how it would get worse, well from your blog this is what i gathered, there is obviously something you're keeping to yourself, something you are not being totally honest about, a truth/feeling you are trying to suppress. A few hours/days/months down the line you'll convince yourself that its gone but it will be somewhere deep down just waiting to come out and then it will be 'unbearable'
another interpretation would be that you are waiting for someone to say the truth or maybe they have and you just don't want to hear it!
I've read your last few blogs and i have to say it seems like there is something that is causing you a great deal of pain, something you want but cannot really have. Life is very short to waste away, either go get what you want, of forget it forever. Your decision should be based on not the easier option, but look at it as a business plan, will this make you happy in the short term only or is this something that will cause you pain now but will fulfil your life forever.
I don't know you but will share this with you, i lost my wife to breast cancer last month, my wife of 40 years. I am sad very sad, but i am happy knowing that i married her all those years ago, and had the best 40 years of my life. Yes i could've married someone else and maybe she would've made me as happy. But i know for a fact what i shared with her, i wouldn't have with anyone else. She looked after me like no other, her smile her hair everything was perfect above all what i loved about her was her heart.
Why am i telling you this, well 41 years ago, i had to make a choice to marry Estelle or not. I was in a dilemma and then finally after months of debating i married my sweetheart. Everything was very difficult at first (why you ask well mainly because i am muslim) but it all fell into place.
63 years has taught me one thing "Nothing in life worth having will ever be easy."
I kind of have an idea but not a 100% sure what your dilemma is, but if my story helps you then i know my Estelle is looking down at me and smiling.
Take care son
I am really sorry for your loss. To an extent I can understand what you are going through. I went through something similar seven years ago. (Here again I will not say exactly what or who)
I must say your comment is worth the read. I have gone through it again and again and feel that you are right in many ways. Like you are right that I am not revealing the entire truth. I am not suppressing anything though. Otherwise I would not be writing this blog.
"another interpretation would be that you are waiting for someone ......." Nope. Not waiting for anyone to say anything. Maybe waiting for an answer, an understanding, a revelation.
There are various thoughts that cause me pain. There are times when I can put in words and put it on this blog. Other times I cannot. I do not have ONE thing that results in these words that feel more sad when read but in reality are not. In fact they impact my understanding in a very positive manner.
"Nothing in life worth having will ever be easy." I cannot agree more.
I must say your words are extremely positive and very helpful. Thank you does not really sound appropriate enough but it is traditional and I hope you know that my gratitude is beyond words.
Best Wishes.
Ah, the first anecdote where the mind seems to have revealed itself. Does the soul shield the will to bear all ends to the game :)
Has your honesty hurt someone or someone’s honesty hurt you…..
More to be said …. After you have been heard
"Ah, the first anecdote where the mind seems to have revealed itself." Hmmm. To an extent, yes. Again, it is a mirror image, the left is actually right and the right is actually left :)
"Does the soul shield the will to bear all ends to the game :)"
Soul revives the hope after losing the game. So, yes it does or at least I am certain it is trying.
"Has your honesty hurt someone or someone’s honesty hurt you….." Both.
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